Ramblings

Aaj jaane ki zid na karo (3)
Yunhi pehloo mein baithe raho (2)
Aaj jaane ki zid na karo
Haay mar jaayenge, hum to lut jaayenge
Aisi baatein kiya na karo
Aaj jaane ki zid na karo (2)
Haay mar jaayenge, hum to lut jaayenge
Aisi baatein kiya na karo
Aaj jaane ki zid na karo

Tum hi socho zara, kyun na roke tumhe
Jaan jaati hai jab uth ke jaate ho tum (2)
Tumko apni qasam jaan-e-jaan
Baat itni meri maan lo
Aaj jaane ki zid na karo
Yunhi pehloo mein baithe raho (2)
Aaj jaane ki zid na karo
Haay mar jaayenge, hum to lut jaayenge
Aisi baatein kiya na karo
Aaj jaane ki zid na karo

Waqt ki qaid mein zindagi hai magar (2)
Chand ghadiyan yehi hain jo aazad hain (2)
Inko khokar mere jaan-e-jaan
Umr bhar na taraste raho
Aaj jaane ki zid na karo
Haay mar jaayenge, hum to lut jaayenge
Aisi baatein kiya na karo
Aaj jaane ki zid na karo

Kitna maasoom rangeen hai yeh sama
Husn aur ishq ki aaj mein raaj hai (2)
Kal ki kisko khabar jaan-e-jaan
Rok lo aaj ki raat ko
Aaj jaane ki zid na karo
Yunhi pehloo mein baithe raho (2)
Aaj jaane ki zid na karo
Haay mar jaayenge, hum to lut jaayenge
Aisi baatein kiya na karo
Aaj jaane ki zid na karo

There's something very hauntingly beautiful about this song. Ofcourse I mean the
Farida Khanum version and NOT the Asha Bhonsle version, which is just rubbish. 
Discovered a little late in my life but so glad I did. From hearing S and M singing 
this for the first time to H humming this as she taps her fingers leisurely on her 
keyboard to telling S not to go to just realising damn...this makes so much sense. 
And now in 3 months, I'll be singing it to A...wishing I could keep her with me but
knowing that she must do what she must do.

Delhi winter is on its way out and I can almost feel the scorching heat of all that 
will follow till the next winter chill. This year I will embark on something new yet 
again and hope I have enough courage in me to see it through without breaking.
But then I'm on my way to being a cold heart bitch...or so I think.The last year 
and half has been such a rollercoaster...those who were my own became strangers
and so many strangers have become my own. Such is the cycle of life I guess. 
Hope I have become wiser.Hope I know how to protect myself without losing myself.

Everything's changing. When did we stop being kids and become adults? I still 
cant pick the moment when I stopped being a kid. Well a kid for all practical 
purposes atleast.That's probably what has made me a little colder. I look back 
at the girl I left behind in Kolkata and wonder who she is...would she 
recognise me? Would she approve of me? Would she judge me? Would she be 
proud of me? 

I miss some things and wish they could have been different but 
know now that things are exactly the way that they perhaps should be. 
I no longer hold on to them. 



I'm letting you go.
I'm not holding you back.
I'm not going to die if I no longer have you.
It is best.
I will be at peace. 
I promise.
I promise you.
I will miss you perhaps.
But I'm letting you go.


But for some....wild horses cannot make me wish you away. The good or the bad.
You make me. :)