A week into the new house yet it hasn't quite settled in. Perhaps it's just the impending depression hanging over my head. D-day has arrived. Tomorrow will be the end of yet another era. Time to look back and take in all the mad dancing, uncontrollable laughter, the flowing tears, the bad fights, the unfortunate misunderstandings, the bi-zarre adventures...damn! 2 years flew by so fast....too fast. There was still so much we were supposed to do together. Unfinished business...something I suppose I should hold on to for the next few years. The hope that we will do all the silly, mundane things we had planned. For now it's just...little boxes, little boxes...
One would assume that by now I'd have gotten used to watching people leave. Clearly not. I cannot begin to fathom how I will walk out of that railway station once I watch the last wisps of the engine smoke disappear into the sky. But then again I'm being selfish. She too will have a raincloud over her head...though she won't show it. Brave one she is. I'm just a wuss. A sentimental wuss. But...she's not going to an empty house, I am. Somewhere that emptiness I can already feel...preemptive strike....
We did live our dream but did it really have to be that short-lived? I could happily settle for another 5 years or so. I know I have to let her go. She must grow and find herself. But can't help feeling like a ton of bricks have settled comfortable on my heart. Goodbyes are never sweet. Yes we will hug each other, smile through our tears but the gut wrenching pain and sorrow that is lurking around the corner will wash over us. So dear world, give us the strength to recover soon. Give us the strength to love and trust. Help us miss but with a smile. May we sleep, content and at peace. Somewhere time will slow down....somewhere time will fly by. Before I know it, I'll be back at the station, waiting to receive and not see off.
Here's to you, kid. Shine whereever your passion leads you. Smile when you think of me. Be brave. Have the strength to overcome every obstacle...physically or mentally. Live fiercely. Love who you are and what you do. Remember the smells and sounds. Do this...and be happy my chotu. Love you lots.
My life would suck without you :)
One would assume that by now I'd have gotten used to watching people leave. Clearly not. I cannot begin to fathom how I will walk out of that railway station once I watch the last wisps of the engine smoke disappear into the sky. But then again I'm being selfish. She too will have a raincloud over her head...though she won't show it. Brave one she is. I'm just a wuss. A sentimental wuss. But...she's not going to an empty house, I am. Somewhere that emptiness I can already feel...preemptive strike....
We did live our dream but did it really have to be that short-lived? I could happily settle for another 5 years or so. I know I have to let her go. She must grow and find herself. But can't help feeling like a ton of bricks have settled comfortable on my heart. Goodbyes are never sweet. Yes we will hug each other, smile through our tears but the gut wrenching pain and sorrow that is lurking around the corner will wash over us. So dear world, give us the strength to recover soon. Give us the strength to love and trust. Help us miss but with a smile. May we sleep, content and at peace. Somewhere time will slow down....somewhere time will fly by. Before I know it, I'll be back at the station, waiting to receive and not see off.
Here's to you, kid. Shine whereever your passion leads you. Smile when you think of me. Be brave. Have the strength to overcome every obstacle...physically or mentally. Live fiercely. Love who you are and what you do. Remember the smells and sounds. Do this...and be happy my chotu. Love you lots.
My life would suck without you :)
1 comment:
i hope she reads this. honest and heart-felt. hugs
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