Light streaming through an open window,
Suppressed giggles, rocking to and fro,
Secrets passes from soul to soul
What felt incomplete becomes whole.
A sudden flash of light-a burning splinter
A cigarette lit- and it just felt better.
Giggles louder still,
The summer breeze sends a chill.
People walk on busy streets below,
We look down and wonder why so..................
A sudden silence and then a laugh
As fluctuating as a graph....
Three souls sit with hidden pasts,
Unspeaking yet,how long can the silence last?
It passes from person to person and is understood,
Without words; a feeling of good.
The silence eventually has to be broken,
Broken with laughs instead of words spoken.
Uneasy silence pushed away with looks exchanged,
Changes the mood to be deranged.
Is it the alcohol, is it the smoke?
What is it that these feelings were evoked?
Is it the company ; is it life?
What makes one put aside their strife?
Pensieve moments replaced by things so light
Just the company of friends makes life so bright.
The distortions in life falls into place,
The presence of friends puts a smile on your face.
Yet another cigarette is lit,
And by the window huddled we sit
The night creeps in slower
But for us daybreak has just dawned....

where have all the rainclouds gone

where are the freakin monsoon rains?????? im tired of the slight drizzle which goes on to give hope n then stops to pour!!! I think if i started to cry about it there'd be more water!!!!!!!!!and it becomes unbelievably hot at nite!!!!!!!
so ami sad about the freakin weather!!!! so i cook.........also cause i like to cook...but im ending up cookin highly rich continental stuff which isnt doin any good to my nearly existing waistline!!!
so would everyone kindly join me in praying to the rain gods??????brishti brishti brishti...e ki aporoop srishti!!! mummy i want rain!!!!!!!!!! ooooo college looks so beautiful in the rains..... so greeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeennnnnnnnnn!!!!!!i want, i like , i chai!!!!!!!!!!!!

silent night.....brilliant breeze.....a lit cig......sitting curled up and taking in the beauty at hand. at a distance south city looms, towering over, looking like Mordor yet beautiful against the midnight kolkata skyline.....sudden squels from the neighbors....seems like someone's won yet another football match.........i smile creeps on my lips.......a familiar sense of lethargy sets in.....havent slept properly in the last couple of weeks but i welcome these sleepless nites.........gives me time to think......
miss those days of being completly happy....of feelin like nothin could get me down.....to feel loved and secure...knowing that my existence means the world to someone........that i can fite with someone and the very next moment just melt by his mere look....to feel my heart beat faster at the slightest touch.....just to feel his arms around me to say that nothin will touch you here,that you will be looked after.....i miss being weak in the knees.......i miss the constant feeling of warmth flowing inside me........i miss being in love....
i believe that one doesnt need a significant other to feel complete but then we are animals and have instincts and desires...........dont get me wrong....i dont mean sex at all........i just mean love..
we always feel the need to be loved every step of the way....but life doesnt end if it doesnt happen that way.....besides "loves come as surprise ice"......anyone who has been in love knows what i'm talkin about.....not love that people generally indulge in these days which doesnt las more than a couple of weeks.....but somethin which grows each day and somehow makes one stronger.....sometimes i wonder whether its greater to love than to be loved.....and then i think maybe.....loving someone means so much more.........just to be able to make someone feel special but then the selfish human tendency of wanting to be loved always creeps in.....even when we know its of no use we never give up hoping do we?
somehow old memories keep rushing back to me..........do we ever stop loving?guess we dont..... we stop being in love but continue to love....yet again something i strongly hold dear to my heart......
to my darling...dont think ill ever stop loving you even though i stopped being in love with you...
to whoever is waiting to sweep me off my feet.........ill be right here waiting just to have your arms around me....what i wouldnt do to just sit in silence and let the silence to the talking......after all when we are SILENT,we can still LISTEN.
the cigs gone out,mordor still looks ethereal..and i still sit curled waiting for my prince.....

" wild horses couldnt drag me away.....wild wild horses gonna ride them oneday......"
seriously one of the best songs i've ever heard......have to thank one particular friend for mentioning it to me...i completly identify with it.........
in life i've noticed onething.........when you care about someone,you are automatically taken for granted.not sayin its a bad thing,among really good friends you r supposed to but what do you do when u dont know whether the feeling is mutual or not.I believe in friendship one should stand on equal ground......one tends to feel naked and vulnerable when someone else has the upperhand.besides do you think its fair?hmmmmmmmmm guess in life one has to roll with the punches...........what you expect you seldom get but when unexpectedly you do.........isnt it the best???what would life be without surprises in little packages.........

freedom finally at hand

yes finally i can see it......uffffff exams are nearly over....i say nearly coz it will be over tom...aftr a break of 10 freaking days!!!!!!!!!god only knows how i've spent these days...na parchilam thik kore masti korte na porte!!
im going crazy thinking about what im gonna do after tom....actually what im gonna do aftr the 13th when my mata will be globetrottin!!!wh means im the queen of the world for the next 2 weeks!!!!!!!wheeeeeeeeeeeee!!!!!im gonna party by day n at nite im gonna plop in front of the tv with chilled bottles of beer and watch the WORLD CUP!!!!!!!!GO BRAZIL!!!!!!!!REST OF THE WORLD EAT DUST!!!!shit am goin mad....gotta concentrate on exam tom...so then oedipus tells creon.................hmmmmmmmm.......