Iti....

I read this blog entry by this friend of mine which she named CTRL D.I dont think I have read something so real in a really long time.YOu must read it as well....maybe you'll feel the same as me.Wistful-a smile with a tear.....remembering it all....
Damn.....why do we make the same mistakes over and over again?But then are they really mistakes?So if they are not then what are they and why do we think they are? So many questions and no answer.My friend puts it beautifully in her blogpost... what is moving on????
hmmmmmmm.....i think.....i wonder....i wish.....

"And we keep driving into the night
It's a Late Goodbye....."

And it is.I take a leaf outta her book ant CTRL D to so much in my life.Only wish it was as easy as at the touch of a single button...wouldn't life be much simpler?But then what is life without its complexities?Where would we be without the stolen glances,the smiles,the touch,the smell,the heartbeat,the hurt,the pain,the heartache?
We'd probably end up being hollow....hahahaha.I cant imagine myself to be that way. I will hurt again.....I will love again.....I will feel alive only to die again.....
I will dance in the sand.....again.....n yes the tears will fall and so will the smiles with it......



P.S. Do read the blog entry I keep refering to.....www.rainbowraven.blogspot.com

It's only words.....

Very often we associate people with certain words or phrases that it becomes almost impossible not to think of them.So here go some of the pearls i have heard n loved in my life.I love the people who have said them coz for nothin else they have kept me smiling......
"Into the depths of hell";"DET";"It's all over for us"
-a gentleman who has decided to take it upon himself to single handedly make me miserable!!!

"It's all good";"Beftiful";"Remumber";"My friend the cow...."
-someone i wont ever forget.

"You know about gorilla warfare..."
-esteemed professor.

"And now our domination is complete!!!";"Aeroplane walking by..."
-shuarer bachha

"I will make you widdle in MY drawers!!!!!!"
-uhhhh need i say who?

"Ossum!!";"Does he have a magic SURD?";"Hello my lovely.what are u doing tonite???"-our resident moron!

"Hi!! Huvverru??!!"
-an entire community of nitwits!!!

"Strolling here and there in the car!!"
-BFG

"Wotiz love"
-the king!!!

"THE!!!!"
-Roofus

"What pretty FLARCE!!!"
-rhymes wi ganja!!!

"Oh my GAWD!!!"
-again need i say who

"Troo dat!!"
-Collective Souls

"Blad Fosshy!!";"Grairy thing of his!";"oh thats approsing!!!(meant to say approaching!!)
-yours truly

"But I have 3 jackssssssss!!!" ;"Shit happens!!"(by request!!!);"Its all good..."(this wont ever leave me i know!!)
-close contender to the post of resident moron!

"Xylophone?Isn't that a part of the human body???";"Take me anywhere right here rite now!!";"I have 3 cheese.......cubes(with 5 min pause before cubes..all the while another conversation had started!!);"Damn the Devil!"-my greatest find.......entertainment always.Hope he gets a life soon!!!

"Raskel"
-Gandu

"I want!I like!I chai!"
-a girl maddened by the hots for a stretchable retard

"She doesnt wanna commit but says please please..."(?????????)
-Loopy

"FUCK HE DOES!!!!"(confidently that too!!!)
-Granny in her elements!!!

"He has won many titles"(to be read as rhyming with little!!!)
-Rafael Nadal

"Arsonists of the world IGNITE!";"Repeal the banana";"Bad spellers of the world untie!"
-UGII classroom

"How now brown cow!"
-Willy boy!!


Damn!!!!!! how how how??!!! how to they do it???!!! HAHAHAHAHA!!! Gosh.....time will go on yet i know i'll never forget and wont ever stop smiling!!!Thank you to all those who have contributed...you know who you are.I love you all....lots....

Oh you silly,stupid pasttime of mine,
You were always good for rhyme,
And from the first to the last time,
The signs said stop.....
But we went on whole hearted,
It ended bad but I love what we started,
It said stop,
But we went on wholehearted,
It ended bad but I love what we started........
Fiona Apple

So parched was the ground,
The want of water all around,
A sense of void.
A breeze now and then,
Leaving us wondering when,
And with us the Gods toyed.
The longing for it all to be washed away,
Without uttering a word,that's what we pray,
Breathe life in us again.
The sound of thunder out of the blue,
A wishful glance passes from me to you,
Will it put us out of our pain?
We sit by the window looking out,
Waiting for the heavens to scream and shout,
So I cried.......
And then it rained.....

SOS

Wont someone please rescue me????Im a damsel in distress.I sit in the tower surrounded by a deep moat...unknown creatures lurk in its dark waters......the level of toxic waste in it could kill anyone.But I am in dire need of being rescued............wont my knight in shining armour rescue me?????Someone should or else I might just go outta my mind and jump and that wont be nice will it?!Uhh im not very fussy....wont anyone rescue me.....?????Pleassssssssseee.....

Water water everywhere.....

So then the last two days has seen way too much rain than i would care for and way too much water logging.....i mean i realise its lake gardens i stay in but really gimme a break!!!! There is ankle deep water in my room!!!!not outside, no matter what a certain oriya would like to think!!!! And i have pretty much been marooned in my own house.....damn!!! But the brighter side was that people felt my pain n came over.....wh resulted in tempers flyin,being highly intoxicated,many laughs and indeed memories being created....i mean isnt that what its all about....makin memories???whatever we do it becomes a part of us and though at that moment it might be unpleasant,later when u look back,its with a smile!!!!
that's the way i look at things.....i was bored,irritated that i was confined to the four walls of my house and then my friends dropped in n we made the most of it.....and thats wats really feels warm.A kinda fuzzy feeling inside.The kind that u get when u have hot chocolate on a particularly cold winter evenin or something as simple as a bite into gooey chocolate.......sigh!!!!
Yet again I sit and write.....still stranded....amidst water but with hope that the day will get better.......

Mama Im Coming Home

"Times have changed and times are strange
Here I come and I aint the same
Mama I'm coming home
Times gone by seem to be
You could have been a better friend to me
Mama, I'm coming home......"

Dammit......I'm in that mode again.I miss school.....i miss it all.Was talkin about school after such a long time with someone who i dint know since adam.......n damn!!!talkin about school wi a perfect stranger(well not stranger really....)is...........damn im still lookin for the right words.
The same time,same place but different people.The smell,the sounds,the feel,the lights......in the morning,in the afternoon(1:20),at nite......
It was home.....somewhere were we learnt how to walk and run and then eventually strut hopin that we'd be noticed.....we learn to gurgle and talk and then eventually talk nonsense just to be noticed.......for what?Gone are the days of innocence,of not worrying about the world.Now with every step I trip and stumble and wonder what it was that I did so wrong to deserve all this.To be out in the world with nothing to protect me....no magic wands,no brooms...not so much as a word.After 15 years of being heard,to be thrown into a life where even if I screamed noone hears me.And so I trip and fall,and slowly pick myself up......drawing strenght from the place which made me the person I am today-to carry on.Coz I have to....I owe it to the place which changed my 1st gurgle to words of confidence.Kinda like Maria..."I have confidence in me".But above all.....
Labore Est Constantia.....
Dammit.......I'm in that mode again.....and the tears feel great coupled with the smile......