yellowed pages of time......

I found a letter the other day in between the trash I used to read as a kid.And that letter was the best surprise of my life.It made my life infact.I'm sure I must have read it before but had forgotten about it.
Euphoria,hurt,love,disappointment-I felt it all at once and a single tear rolled down my cheek.I dont think I felt more loved as I felt right then.No one has loved me so much I think.Maybe I'm being unfair to loads of people by sayin this but that feeling of being completely loved,of being missed,realising how much I meant to someone.That I was the reason for his living........I honestly have not been loved like that ever......
I smile now as I go through each word in my head and tears still form.....the innocence,the warmth,the poignance of it all.......
A letter to a 10 month old child from her father........
I love u 'da-da'.......always.....

and the bird has flown....

and yet another one flew the nest.1st my youngest left to make it in the big world, then my eldest.And now one of my twins.....thank god I have one of my children with me.....
I hate to see them grow up and leave.to me they'l always be kids-naive,innocent, stupid and i gotta look after them always.Letting go is always hard especially when you're the adoptive mother!!!!
I'm gonne miss the uncombed,long hair;the ready smile;the constant bokami yet I know she needs to find her way on her own.The days spent scolding her,lecturing her, combing her hair and chatting about her boyfriend and the lastest gossip, frowning at her choice of clothing & excessive drinking, catching her every time she fell, loving her.....
and now she has to do it alone.
She will be on my mind always,I will worry about her all the time...who wouldnt when it's someone as precious and irresponsible as her?
Yes, watching your children grow up is always tough for a mother.
Wonder how Rupa Mashi is doing it if it's so tough for a pseudo mother like me......

***You Are The Star***


You represent the ultimate in truth and purity.
Insightful and illuminating, you provide guidance for others.
You also demonstrate unselfish, unconditional love.
You posses many spiritual gifts, including the ability to heal.

Your fortune:

Your future is looking brighter by the day.
The near future will be a time of both hope and healing.
Luck is about to come your way, perhaps the best luck you have ever seen.
Life is about to get a lot easier and much better!


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